Before I was married I taught bible study, lead worship at 3 different churches at one point, was in an amazing bible study and had the opportunity to pour into people on a weekly basis. You see when you do those ministries you see the fruit of what you are doing. You see lives changed, you feel the presence of the Lord, you grow in your knowledge of the word and you know your purpose.
Even though now I still sing occasionally, and try to pour into to people during the precious free time I have, I am still not doing what I use to. I struggle some days with this. But then the Lord so gently reminds me of the most amazing ministry I have and one that I may never see all the fruit of.
I have been entrusted with the amazing ministry of being a help mate to my husband, and disciple and teach these precious children about Jesus. Although I may not see the fruit of what I do on a weekly or even monthly basis I know that one day I will.
As I was praying the other night and giving this struggle to the Lord he gently whispered in my heart two words “Be faithful.” God has entrusted me with everything I need for a godly life and abundance in Him (2 Peter 1:3). He has given me all the tools in His word to pray and live out with my children and husband. He has given me opportunities and He will continue to lead me in them. I just have one big task to do with it all- BE FAITHFUL.
One day, Lord willing, I will see God answer my prayer of raising up my young men to be warriors for Christ,To stand up for His truth and that they would love God’s Word more than anything this world could offer.
One day, Lord willing, I see the fruit of disciplining our children, that they would be men of self control, men who exhibit kindness and generosity and that stand out in this world because they walk blamelessly with Jesus.
One day, Lord willing, they will rise up and call me blessed, not because of anything I did but because they saw Jesus, they saw redemption, forgiveness and grace in our home.
But until that day, I have to remain faithful in my ministry and calling.