I dreamed of you last night. Everything was familiar about you, you were in good health, good humor and so strikingly handsome. Everything was attractive about you, just like I remember. Then in my dream you started withering before my eyes, you were sick and we knew it wouldn’t be long till you would be in eternity. I sat by you watching your frame deteriorate yet your eyes sparkled with excitement. You told me that you were so excited to be in the presence of the Lord and that I would be there soon, you were just going to be there before me. You told me we dont have this earth to be together, but we would have eternity which was so much better and longer, and that was what mattered. In the dream I got distracted by a relationship and feeling inadequate, and then someone quickly pointed out that I was wasting valuable precious time. I quickly through tears apologized and was heartbroken that I could get so easily off the task at hand. I once more joined your side and felt the excitement growing in my heart for you, to be with our precious Savior at last. I was jealous, I too long to be made whole again, to have this weight of the world gone, and be made new in the eyes of my precious Lord. But when God wrote the story of our lives, He wrote you going to see Him first, then I would join you, one day, when my mission here on earth was completed. I saw you take your last breath and saw a vision of a moment in eternity. Oh what sweet relief, and the presence of Jesus that filled the atmosphere.That moment was everything I longed for, a hope that did not disappoint, a relief that never ended, a presence that fulfilled every precious longing. Then I woke up.
That dreamed helped recalibrate my focus that I am here on earth for a reason. God is not through with me yet. That the enemy wants to take any of the precious time I do have and use it for distraction instead of eternal purpose, to make me feel inadequate with the call or insecure in the way I do the mission. But God, His forgiveness is free, His grace is strong and His calling secure. HE is purpose. This earth is but a moment in compared to time and we all have a mission to do. That relationship that is taking so much of your time, is it a distraction and a consummation of your time? Is that feeling of inadequacy so that you aren’t as bold with the message, is that consuming your heart? We have a mission, a calling to do. No one knows what our life looks like here on earth. But I do know that I can worship my Savior just like my husband who is in heaven, the only difference is location. This time on earth is precious and very short. Oh Lord convict my heart when I get distracted in the mission, turn my heart towards your ways, help me remember that I will be joining my sweet man soon in the song of the redeemed but until then I will run the race that God has marked out for me. My body may grow weaker as I go, but my spirit will remain alive and excited that I get to the work of my Lord. For His kingdom and His glory that never ends, I will spend my life and breath till my work is finished.
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